Extreme Makeover: Life Edition

I am really am feeling the need for a drastic change but I’m not 100% certain what it is that I need at this moment.
Is it something as simple as a change of jobs or a change of apartments or do I need a complete life overhaul? Right now it is really feeling like the latter.
I feel like I need to uproot myself and go somewhere new and just start over. I have lived in this area for nearly 10 years and do not have much to show. Where I live is tres expensive and I worry about digging myself deeper and deeper into debt just to scratch out some kind of a life in this area. I also worry that I’m just pining for something that does not really exist.

From what I can see what is missing from my life is 1) a job in a field that I actually am interested in 2) boyfriend/ boyfriend prospects. Now I have said bully to those who have attempted to push me or belittle me for having no love in my life before but I cannot deny it I need love in my life and it is missing.  And 3) a place to live in that I am not embarrassed to bring people over to.  So now that I have identified my “awesomeness barriers” I am going to take every possible step to eradicate them and turn them around. And fair readers I plan on doing this all by August 31st. Yes my friends, by the end of summer. I have decided that the only way I can ever get my butt moving and trying to reclaim my life is by giving myself a deadline and making it soon.

I think these changes need to happen to make me feel that its worth it to stay a long distance away from my family. Right now it is really not worth it. The only thing I have to really keep me where I am is my friends other than that I’m not married to my job and well, I’m not married to anything.

So I need a plan of attack right? I need to figure out someway to get myself straightened up and flying right and all of those great guidance counselor sayings. I do feel as if I’m in a serious rut and I think the first thing that will help get me out of it is by finding a new hobby or engaging my mind in something totally new. My plan of attack for this is to go to the local bookstore and explore the hobby section. I will have to narrow it down based on practicality. Though I have been dying to take up knitting. I think this is something I will have to investigate further.

My second part of the plan is to figure out what I need job wise. This is proving to be the most difficult. I have absolutely no idea what I really want to do. I know that I want to work with people and be able to be myself and be creative but beyond that I have no clue. I do not even think I’d want to be paid to blog. This is something that I do so that I don’t walk around talking to myself all the time. Everyone keeps telling me that I’d be a great teacher but I don’t know if I’d really enjoy it. When I first went into college that’s what I went to school for – to become a history teacher. So I’m not sure I feel that this area definitely requires some more exploring and some fairly serious soul searching.

The third part of  my plan – find a man. Well after my brother met his actual soul mate on eharmony I decided to join. I broke down and I did it. Yes, I want to be one of those couples on the commercial talking about how in love I am with my perfect mate. I want to dance and hug well that song plays in the background. Oh its so nice. I also joined Yahoo personals and we’ll see how that works out.

Now I just need everything to fall together. This is what I am hoping will happen over the next few months. If I can’t get a real life together here I really am going to have to figure out where I can go to get everything to fall into place.