Dark Spot

I'm really waiting for everything in my life to stop being so God damned difficult. I'm really about 100% over it. I'm so tired of this. I feel like the universe has just been beating the shit out of me non stop for the past year. Anytime I think that I'm making the tiniest bit of headway something just knocks my ass back to the ground, clinches my throat and reminds me where I belong.

I'm tired of feeling depressed and hopeless. I'm tired of feeling rejected and tossed out. Everything feels overwhelming when my life gets like this. Apparently today was dump shit on me day - I wish someone would have told me I never would have gotten out of bed.

I'm just really loosing a lot of will here. I hate getting up in the morning. I feel like such a failure, I feel like such a loser. Here I am with 10 years of amazing work experience under my belt a BA and a Masters and I can't get a job to save my life. My life is so pathetic and I just feel like the most useless waste of space on the planet. I