Unsettled in your own Skin

Lately I have not been feeling like myself. I'm not sure what exactly its all about. For the last couple of months I was really looking forward to packing it up and move back to my hometown, i had all of these ideas about how things were going to be and how they were going to go, so far my ideas have not come to fruition. I'm not sure if this is what is making me feel less then stellar. It doesn't feel like disappointment it feels as if I've lost my joy.

I hate taking myself down these dark roads, I know it is so counterproductive but somehow I just cannot snap out of this funk. It literally creeped in over night, everything was fine I felt amazing and impowered and in control and then one morning I woke up and all of those feelings were gone. I feel like its been a week since I've felt good about myself and my situation and that is just way too long for me.

At first I thought it was hormonal but my period has since ended and I'm still feeling not right. Then I thought maybe it was because I wasn't doing any big time cardio but that has not been the answer. I'm not sure what it is that I need. Maybe I just need to keep telling myself the fairy tale, the beautiful story of what it is that I want and how gorgeous it will be when I receive it. I just want to feel right again and feel good and feel beautiful. Right now I feel so "ugh" and just like I'm not who I really am.