The Man Comes Around

So since Boyfriend decided that we needed space, which ultimately I have to say I agree with, things have slowly been coming back together with us. We talked last week and it was a frank and honest discussion about our expectations and how we each viewed the relationship. Turns out we were completely misreading one another, well he was misreading me I was on the money with him (but we won't let him know that).

After I said "I wish we could have a do over" he said we could. So, we're going to start again. He confessed that while he was on a trip a sexual opportunity presented itself and he turned it down. I pointed out that we don't have a committment right now meaning either of us can do whatever we please. Apparently saying things like this make men change their minds because our conversation this week was much different. Let's just say that this week the conversation erupted into him panicking that "my light was on" (anyone who has watched Sex and the City knows what thats about and apparently telling me about Sex and the City-ism sticks, FYI). I have never seen Boyfriend like this he was obviously panic striken, insecure and *GASP* vulnerable. Seeing him like that sort of startled me. Clearly I know that Boyfriend cares for me but being an Aquarius he certainly does not emote. After a half-hearted reassurance, actually not even a reassurance since all I said was "I didn't say that" which was purposeful because he is not allowed to rest on his laurels at this point.

Conversation still feels a little off kilter to me with him. I think we're getting back there again though. His friendship is very important to me and I would really like to see everything fall back into step. Who knows when things will turn around at this point. I'm hopeful that it won't take too long.