Veruca Salt Syndrome Lite

Okay, so I personally believe that I have had huge growth in terms of patience. Right now, I'm Patient McPatient when it comes to LA Boy. All of my girlfriends are astounded. If LA Boy lived here I probably would've pushed the relationship to the point of extinction by this point, instead I'm waiting patiently for the dice to roll. Very patiently. To the point that I'm seriously freaking myself out with how zen I'm acting. Last night I said to a girlfriend that I know that LA Boy thinks me impatient but he has no idea what me being impatient really is all about.

Okay so in the midst of all this bright, shiny patience is tha little knot in the pit of myself that is SCREAMING. I mean like a damn banshee, just wailing at how S-L-O-W this is all going. I hate it a lot. I have to quiet that voice screaming "I want what I want when I want it and I want it now!". Because the truth of the matter is that I want LA Boy and I want him bad. I have serious, serious crush on this man and there is nothing I want more then to know him and have him know me. If he called tonight and said get your ass here tomorrow guess where I'd be tomorrow? If you guessed there you are right, here's a cookie.

Its just this neuroses for no damn reason is so exhausting. I was talking to one of my girlfriends last night and we both agreed that for one day, just one day men and women get to switch brains. We get a vacation and they get that knot in the stomach, where is this going?, why isn't her calling?, etc for a whole day. We both felt that men immediately would start behaving how we expected them to without prompting since they would see what we feel. It's crazy being a woman, absolutely nuts.

There it is, right there. I have such anxiety about this guy yet I'm still so zen at the same time. I trust in him to do right even when it does not seem that he is doing so. I don't what that is all about. All I keep thinking about is being with him, seeing him and being able to spend time with him. I cannot wait to get off that plane and see that sly smile and those green eyes. It makes me nuts. Damn men.