Time Lag Much?

I haven't posted in a while and I actually haven't even thought about posting in a while. Things have been sort of crazy but in very good ways. I've just been so incredibly busy.

To update everyone. The Ex and I tried to maintain a friendship and it blew up a little over a month ago when Ex began yelling at me about all the things I did wrong in our relationship and how I ruined it. I told him that we could not be friends if he insisted on still acting like my boyfriend all the time and couldn't leave the past in the past. I said if he could not abide by those rules then there is the door. Have not heard from him since and I don't really miss him. With all the distance between me and our relationship it really was totally for the best that he and I ended everything. If he was to ever come back into my life he would have a serious overhaul that would need to be done in order for me to date him again. I've definately changed up my priorities and he no longer applies to what I need and want.

As for sitting back and letting the men come to me, well its been like shooting fish in a barrel. I've met plenty of lovely nice guys via the internet but no one was really getting me feeling like WOW what a guy. Then last month was my friends birthday. She let me know that most people were not going to be able to make it out to celebrate and that it would just be me and her and a guy friend of her's I haven't met yet, we'll call him Einstein.

Now keep in mind I was supposed to meet Einstein about three times before I actually met him. All times I was quite tied up with another man, another relationship or just not in the frame of mind for love. As was the case for him. Well my girlfriend said when we met we both gave her the same look that said "you did not say s/he was cute!". I drove my girlfriend home and she asks me what I thought and I say he's really cute and funny. He says the same for me. The next day he sends out an invite to the three of us to go see a movie that Sunday. My girlfriend can't go so its just the two of us. We have a fake date. Because there was a moment when it turned and I said to myself, I think this may have become a date.

Well chemistry did fly and conversation was good and I eagerly awaited a follow up email or phone call. Sadly none really came. Though shortly thereafter he invited me and the same girlfriend to the movies. She wrote and asked if she should gracefully declined I said I felt that would be best and away we go. Another fake date. However, at the end of this fake date came a real kiss, a quick one but a kiss nonetheless.

I speak to my girlfriend about this and here's what it untangles. Einstein has a girlfriend who moved to Argentina several months ago. He and this girl were dating for three months when she left and they never discussed not being exclusive. He in fact told my girlfriend that he will deal with it when he meets someone. Well low and behold he has met someone. Now as of right now I have no idea what is going on with his status. We did have a real kiss, long and good, on Saturday night and I told him he needed to start asking me out on real dates and he agreed and said he'd be in touch. Now knowing that he is an ethical guy I'm imagining the Argentian girl is bye-bye. We shall see.

Its just nice to actually be around a sweet guy. The Ex was a great guy but he got so scared and so afraid of commitment that he just turned into a huge jerk and I didn't know how to handle that. I already feel very comfortable and cozy with Einstein. I find that I feel open to him in a way that I've never really felt before towards another guy. I just feel as if I can trust him. That he really would never do anything to hurt me. Its amazing the difference a few months make, huh? I really didn't believe that I would be here so soon. I had so much faith in Ex and he just didn't return that sentiment. I had my blinders on in that relationship and couldn't see the real big picture with him which was that he was depressed and scared and did not act appropriately.